It hurts.....

It has been six long years before my first-born baby died. Two days after i gave birth to her, she had hard time breathing. In the hospital, I can still imagine how she looks like.When I saw her in the incubator with all those dextrose in her hand and a tube in her nose, it squeezed my heart to death. I wanted to scream because she does not deserve to be like that. I wanted to cry at that very moment but then I felt nothing.... I'm in deep shocked. I thought she was just sleeping, before I knew she was already dead....Tears keep falling from my face....

Until now, it still hurts that we were not able to make her survive....May be it was God's plan and we cannot question that........But it takes times for us to move on.....


It still hurts....really it is.....

My Sentiments

There was a time that I asked myself.Why am I not successful at this point in my life? May be because, it was my fault. I can see my colleagues in college who are now successful in their field. That is the very reason why I do not go to reunions even though I was cordially invited.

I know deep in my heart that I can still be successful in time and may be in some other way. I know God has plans for me and for my family..in due time.....


Well, that's my only consolation.

Loving you PAPA...

Falling in love with someone is one of the most wonderful feeling that a person would feel.That's what i felt when i met my husband. He was one of the most wonderful gift God has given to me. He was my knight in shining armor. He saved me from hell. He saved me from depression in my life. And if given the chance to bring back the time, i would still choose my PAPA to be my husband forever. God blessed us with two handsome kids. Financially speaking, we're not that stable and even distance keeps us apart, we were able to cope with it. And still we were a happy couple. We've been through a lot of problems in life but we were able to face it and still stand together. Our love keeps us alive.

I love you PAP, very much......